So I am relaxing to a cup of tea on this, soon-to-be Saturday evening.
I find myself complacent in light of recent evens and several upsets.
I can't remember the last time I was so copacetic with the fact that I am home doing nothing on a Saturday during the summer.
In one day, I will be back at school, taking the same ol' route and doing the same ol' thing, every same ol' day...
I can't say I'm excited, yet I still I still can't shake the anxiousness I'm starting to feel deep within me.
Soon it will get colder and my shorts will go back to being lost in my drawers somewhere.
Soon I'll be figuring out what to cosplay as for NYAF.
Soon I'll be wondering what will my costume be for my first Halloween with Ate Avi... and yet school will be the least of my thoughts.
I drink this tea, in a "cheers to-" sort of fashion that I'll remain focused and mature and goal driven as I have been this summer.
I hope love won't control my life, but rather find a natural place within it.
I hope to grow alongside my friends and loved ones and find that future I've always wanted to be closer.
..Goodness this tea is yummy...
I love how I have become so goal-oriented. Soon, I'll be going to get my license. Soon, I'll be looking for my second job. Soon, I will be pursuing nursing classes to what I thought would be for the "career that would never happen for me".
Still, while I strive to be the "me" I want to be, and sculpt my future...
I can't help but ponder about the obvious...
What WILL be my future?
I guess I'm still scared of the uncertain.
Every year for me, it's the same deal.
I'm a faithful person now... So I'm doing a lot of praying. I hope I'll make the absolute best out of this year.
I pray for everyone and good luck to a brand new year.
And I hope...
...all my friends will be right there with me on my journey.
I really do love them all.
God Bless to all!
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