First Day of School. [Junior Year Fall 2009]

Definitely not the kind of day I expected at all.


First it started of nice and hectic as normal.
The usual "OH GEEZ! I DIDN'T WAKE TO THE RIGHT ALARM! WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE!? WHAT WILL I WEAR!?", as I scramble to shower and all that other stuff girls do, but never tell.

Finally deciding upon an outfit, (which was hard enough when I was choosing between "show stopper", "keepin' it real" and "studious" outfits I had planned out in my head), I went along with "studious" and somehow managed to make it out of the door on time.

I knew my luck was good when a woman who was walking her dog came by. The dog came up to sniff me and naturally I couldn't resist to pet him. <3

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Managed to make it on the bus, and on time. Seemed like things were just nicely falling into place. No awkward turtle moments or any annoyances what so ever. It was a very pleasant trip to school.

Got to school. Came to Stats early. Sat down. Ian scared me with a water bottle and his scent (lol) and as the lesson progressed, I found it strange (and quite funny) that I understood everything we had to learn, but NONE of what she said. Mirosnikova has such a THICK accent!

Then there was break. Hung with mostly Ian.

Then there was World Lit with flippin' Mr. Jeff Foxworthy, yo. Haha. But nah, Mr. Lee was chill peoples. He made me lol. However.. the work load did not at all amuse me... Still not sure how I feel about this class yet.

Then I had Chem with Monique :]. Rollins is boring. I sorta fell asleep towards the end of it.. I'm kinda worried about how I will be for the rest of the semester with this class.. ^-^;

After that, I went to return Ian his camera that I had for like.. ever.. and then got picked up by Bragi and this dude named... Joyce... YES. JOYCE. I lol'd too.

He smoked.. wasn't too thrilled about that.
Bragi, looked pretty as always :]

We hit up McDonalds, dropped off Joyce, picked up her sisters and her mom, dropped her mom to work then hung at her house and Cross County.
It was fun seeing her again, and having a chill time with her sisters as well. Just goofing off with them was, to me, very refreshing. I never usually hang out with just girls. It's nice to know I still can have a girl's day out and not be such a tomboy. I was a bit nervous, but I laughed a lot and they seemed to like me. :]
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No class till 6:30pm tomorrow! I wonder what the day will have in store ;]

<3
Bragi
<3


lol.

Reflection: New School Year begins...

So I am relaxing to a cup of tea on this, soon-to-be Saturday evening.

I find myself complacent in light of recent evens and several upsets.

I can't remember the last time I was so copacetic with the fact that I am home doing nothing on a Saturday during the summer.

In one day, I will be back at school, taking the same ol' route and doing the same ol' thing, every same ol' day...

I can't say I'm excited, yet I still I still can't shake the anxiousness I'm starting to feel deep within me.

Soon it will get colder and my shorts will go back to being lost in my drawers somewhere.

Soon I'll be figuring out what to cosplay as for NYAF.

Soon I'll be wondering what will my costume be for my first Halloween with Ate Avi... and yet school will be the least of my thoughts.

I drink this tea, in a "cheers to-" sort of fashion that I'll remain focused and mature and goal driven as I have been this summer.

I hope love won't control my life, but rather find a natural place within it.

I hope to grow alongside my friends and loved ones and find that future I've always wanted to be closer.

..Goodness this tea is yummy...

I love how I have become so goal-oriented. Soon, I'll be going to get my license. Soon, I'll be looking for my second job. Soon, I will be pursuing nursing classes to what I thought would be for the "career that would never happen for me".

Still, while I strive to be the "me" I want to be, and sculpt my future...
I can't help but ponder about the obvious...

What WILL be my future?

I guess I'm still scared of the uncertain.
Every year for me, it's the same deal.

I'm a faithful person now... So I'm doing a lot of praying. I hope I'll make the absolute best out of this year.

I pray for everyone and good luck to a brand new year.

And I hope...




...all my friends will be right there with me on my journey.

I really do love them all.

God Bless to all!

ONE MOOOOOORE THING! yes my events are out of order :\

Ah. Summer.



adventures to talk about.



18 Aug 2009. Beach day at Rockway :P

wake up mad early..
beach day with Trish Erik & Dan.
had my period lol...
had to use a tampon for the FIRST TIME. mad scary.. lol

got to the beach, had to go to some random cardiologist office by the beach in Queens and shove that thing up there.. mad weird... :\

met up with Erik's girl, Suemi :]

swam, got thrashed by waves.. lost a contact.. :\

nearing end of day...



.. lost my wallet.........
devastation.. and more.. i cant even explain...

looked to God for my only solace....

got a lecture from dad ..but it was worth it.. i understand him more now.. have more faith in God.

next day, found out bright and early some really good person found it and reported it to my dad's job.

i had EVERYTHING in that wallet. ids, debit card, money, house keys.. my whole life..
and god and a good person gave it back to me :]
dad drove me to Queens, we had lunch with one of his friends.. and

wow.. lesson learned and fun day out with friends.. much needed too. :]





Next day, went to Palisades with Trish, Spaz, Alex, Erik and Dan.
shopped around. bought red pants :]
had a grand ol' time with the friends ;]




17 Aug 2009

had a pool day with Dani and Mich. then we went to applebees.. and ate really well.. then i drove! :D
then mich drove.... O_o;;

lol. you already know.





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Went to Lake George from 12 Aug- 14 Aug with my fam. It was ok. swam and took pics.



Saw "The Little Mermaid" on B'way on 07 Aug.





Went to six flags and bronx zoo with my crew and animeNext with my boys..
Ian+Dad's bday and a sweet 16..


and of course showing my Ate, Avi, who is staying with us till Dec, around NY and having more grand ol' times.





and last but not least, 25 Aug

had a lake day with Olivia, Diamond, Oliver, Alfredo, and new ppl Jiovanni and Nicholas :]

Nicholas got cut up BAAAAAD by some glass and i aided him :]...
with pads.. and mad bandaids..

then we went to A&P picked up a nice cheese cake sampler.

went back to Oja's and Mike's apartment and showered, kicked it, watched movies, had a meal especially made by Oja<3,>:P







and THAT's been my summer up until THIS POINT.

4 more days and summer is GONE ppl! :[

let's MAKE IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!

OH GEEZ. Passing out and Yank-EEEEEEEEs

HAH.


Ok.
So it's was about, 1-ish a.m.

Ate comes in saying "Call your mom", and that always a guaranteed cranky morning.
I'm def not a morning person.
You wake me up wrong, I get mad.
You call me before 3 pm.. I get mad.
You call me constantly.. and txt.. and voicemail.. I'll get mad.
You ask me to get up for you or do something for you when I'm STILL in bed..

yea..in other words.. i am NOT a morning person.

So evidently I called my mom. She gave me news that we were going to a Yankee game today. Naturally I got excited (despite my current lack of mental comprehension) but of COURSE there was a catch.
"You are to take a cab to Woodlawn station, and then take the 4 train to Grand Concorse..", she says, and I'm like... "...."... which in Vanessa language means... "aw heck no..."
You dont ask me to do complicated things especially when i JUST woke up.. and not even willingly too.

So i started mass txting ppl. "Are you busy? Yankee game?"
After fifty billion "no"s, or "busy cuz i suck" b.s., i finally got a YES from DANI!!!<3 .. (after much confusion and rushing and stuff of course). I got up ,rushed to get ready.. ppl txting me in the meantime and im like "dude uugh.. i'd love to still talk but im rushing..." and still being txted ....
Then dad says his friend, Wilson, our usual hook-up man , was gonna pick us up and take us to the train station.
I was like, all good- saves money.
Also, good looks to Dani's mom, for driving us all to Lincoln Hospital...

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oh yea.. thats the catch mom was telling me about...
me and my sister needed physicals... :\


Now.. phyicals to me.. never meant a good thing. I hate going to hospitals.. for my own account. I get real bad anxiety. Like, it always just smells like a hospital, always so cold like a hospital.. and i just.. HATE GOING. PERIOD.

So the closer and closer we got.. and the minute mom took me and my sister away from the rest of the group relaxing in the lounge........i knew..

So I go first.
Naturally, being older.. :\

Doc asks me a few questions.. the usual. drugs, smoke, drink, sex, emo.. that stuff.
Does the less paining examinations..
then they started discussing my shots.. and i thought i heard like 4...


I WAS CLOSE.

They bring me to another room.. i see the lady preparing like 6 needles.. im like O________O;;;;;;
I sat there, she brought them closer..

and ok here's the deal.
Im not scared of needles. I just get nervous because in the PAST ive had a few bad experiences. recent past. Like when i was younger, yea- the works- crying, tantrums.. needles are evil, that whole thing. I grew a bit older, nah they dont hurt, they're whatev.. still dont like them but they are whatev.

12th grade blood drive. complete black out and much unnecessary blood loss due to carelessness and no supervision. blood wasnt passing thru the tubes to the bag. they tried jiggling the needle around in me and boom. i wake up pale as a ghost with tons of bloody tissues everywhere.

age 18 physical. i threw up due to having 5 shots. i got a half cup of water..like some joke.

and today..?
one TB test. no prob. bubbled a lil and no itchyness/discoloration/discomfort.

hep..A shot? i believe? felt that liquid go in me.. i start to get really dizzy and really nauseous...

3rd and last was the somewhat painful HPV shot..
nurse goes to do.. whatever
i was listening to my music during all three sohts..
last song i remember was "Rockin' that thang" by The Dream.

the next thing i knew, im laying down and trying to be helped up by 3 ppl.. not sure who..
they asked me some questions.. till i heard "want something to drink" and i voiced out "yes" as much as i could.
i felt like throwing up.

they gave me a cup of coke and i was still listening to music.. but really teary eyed.. i was scared..

hearing about it was the worst...
my sister and cousin relayed the story on me;
apparently i got really dreary eyed.. swaying a bit..short of breath..my lower lip turned pale and i slumped then fell back, blacked out.
Kay said the last thing i said was "Kayla..." and i thought that was kinda sweet in a really morbid way.. my cousin said as i was out, i jerked a bit.. and my sister thought i was gonna die, and my cousin thought i was gonna have a seizure.
i just remember being really nauseous then really sleepy.

it was pretty nuts..
mom and then nurses were just joking around about it.. saying i am a scardey-cat.. and weak and "how am she gonna be a nurse? hahaha"
...i sure wasnt laughing.

i went out to see Kay's danielle and my danger d (<3) in the waiting room. dani got my txt about me passing out and she laughed.
it felt good to at least joke around about it with friends. lol.. still.. scary stuff.



thennnnnnn

Yankee stadium!!!
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~game~
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Yanks against Texas Rangers.
[#32 hamilton YOU SUCK! lol]

A-Rod still sucked... lol.

ppl were cheering Melky.
the ppl behind us had giants jerseys and we were like ???? wrong game yo. haha

there was also this kid going thru puberty and hollered like crazy and sounded like he had laryngitis.

all in all, interesting day.

Yanks pwn'd. 9-2. Dani and Danielle and Avi are good luck ;]

will def do that again.
i ate like 2 hot dogs and a pizza.

took lots of pics. but those go on FB :P



just looked at my TB shot.. and its not supposed to grow.......................
i think im gonna sleep now... my arms are gonna be SOOO immobile by morning...

peace y'all :]

05aug2009. Happy 28th Birthday Ate Avi :]

MY GOOD GOLLY GOSH.
what a day..

::pause::
sorry, my fore head was itchy.

but anyway,
today we (as in us gals) went to the Palisade Mall <3>
i told the rest of them and then we went to Fridays. i had the borcolli and cheddar soup... mmmmmmm
our waiter was weird lol

we got home (AGAIN lol) and put a candle in the cake we bought Ate and wished her happy bday, took pics, the whole dish- and the finally ate some of it...
omg..
heaven would taste like that cheesecake man... omg.....GODiva cheesecake F T W!

then we started laughing at nothing, looking thru old pics.. and now we are all chilling.

i'd say a day well spent...EMPHASIS ON SPENT. lol <3